First, I need to explain that I have always believed that heaven is for real. I grew up in a Roman Catholic home and have never questioned the existence and love of God, Jesus Christ or heaven. I have also always believed in the power of God to do amazing things in our lives. So as I began reading the book, I did not question “if this could happen,” I believe that it did.
A brief little timeline that made the book, Heaven is for Real, an amazing reading experience for me!
November 2004 – Positive Pregnancy Test!
December 2004 – Lots of spotting, Ultrasound reveals a 7 week old little baby with a little heartbeat! Ultrasound also reveals a 5.5 week old baby that has stopped growing – the cause of the spotting.
January 2005 – Doctor cannot find the heartbeat of the baby using the Doppler. Ultrasound reveals the baby has stopped growing.
An up and down, overwhelming three months capped off by a D & E, hemorrhaging and a weight of sadness and disappointment in myself. I clearly remember lying in the waiting area before I went in for surgery “talking” to a little baby that wasn’t there. I was so sad that they were going to have perform surgery, I felt like I was letting someone take the baby. It was a feeling of personal failure: miscarriage – I felt I had MISS carried my baby, I hadn’t done the best I could and the death of the baby was my fault.
All of this lead-up is bringing us to one of the most amazing revelations in Heaven is for Real for me. As the book describes the little boy meeting his sister that his mother miscarried at eight weeks, I completely connected with Sonja and her response: the relief; the acknowledgement that although the miscarriage “seared her heart with grief” that “our baby is ok!” The fact that the little girl is happy and “ok” and looking forward to the day her mommy and daddy come to heaven gave me a sense of peace. As Todd writes in the book, “We had wanted to believe our unborn child had gone to heaven. Even though the Bible is largely silent on this point, we had accepted it on faith. But now we had an eyewitness.”
And now I know that when I get to heaven I have two little babies waiting for me!
This is truly an amazing read. Please, please take the time to read it.
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ReplyDeleteWhat a moving post. Thank you for sharing.
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